Three Month Baby/Postpartum

WOW.

This word sums up pretty much everything that has happened in the past three months.
I am in disbelief and constantly find myself in a state of shock.
I'm finally starting to realize I'm a mom (thanks to so many conversations where friends will tell me "You're a mom now!" or ask "What's it like being a new mom?"). And to their questions I can only reply "Weird. Very, very weird".

Because, well, it is. Even being prepared for 9 months was not nearly enough preparation. Even after 3 months of her being on this planet with us I still don't feel prepared.

Being a mom in the beginning was just making sure she was growing (eating, sleeping, getting tummy time, bowel movements). Now, I get to play with her almost all day. I get to see her smile and watch her roll over. I get to talk to her, do laundry with her, sing with her, read to her. It's so much more than before and I know we're only going to get to do even bigger, more complex things farther down the road.

She's currently on a bedtime routine that starts around 7 and in no particular order she: eats, takes a bath, is read to or sung to, and a lot of play. She's sleeping through the night and sometimes she wakes up in the middle of the night to eat but she always goes right back to sleep afterwards. She's happy and healthy. That's all I can really ask for her. (:

And for me? I think I'm doing just as well.

Things I'm glad I can do again:

• Dance. (although limited)
• Eat raw fish and unpasteurized cheese.
• Cook!!!
• Put on my own shoes.
• Run.

Things I'm glad I can do now that I have a baby:

• Show her off. c:
• Always have company.
• Reassure pregnant friends that labor will NOT kill you (although it will feel like it).
• Pass on her weight to my husband.
• Dress her up.
• Send pictures/videos to my mom, mom-in-law, and sister.
• Hang out with my sister and her son. (:
• I could probably think of a lot more things.

My body:

• Does not hurt nearly as much. I can move a lot more but still not like I could before pregnancy.
• Tenosynovitis (I carry her a lot... Probably more than is recommended)
• My belly is still squishy but still going down! It's hard to remember that your abs separate during pregnancy and after having a baby, you have to basically build your abs from nothing.

My mind:

• Absolutely revolts at her cries. I always feel a need to soothe her (but my mom has told me she was the same way with me so I don't feel nearly as bad doing it).
• Is slowly working it's way to believing I am a mother (I was just getting used to being a wife...).

This was a lot of lists but I'm not really sure how else to put it. 

If you're currently pregnant I really recommend the What to Expect the First Year book to prepare you for what baby has in store for you. I didn't really read pregnancy books but I did read this one as far as the first month. It was very helpful and made me feel a lot more ready to take care of my little one. (:

Here's a link but try to look for the newest edition!

If you guys have any Qs for me don't hesitate to ask! (: You can comment below or email me at plizdeleon@gmail.com (:

xxxx

Beth