Thank you, God.

For today's payday, for extra money from writing commissions, for the bank lady giving back an overdraft fee, for the 100 on my first History and Culture exam, for EC's double shift today, for the return of a private lesson to be taught by just Eric (Because I make the kid nervous ): but i'm sure with time, i'll be able to teach it, too. Haha.), for healthy food and a healthy baby, for a loving family, for a loving husband, for all the opportunities.

And we still pray for EC to get into ASU so he can pursue his dream to teach dance.

I'm so thankful.

xxx

Betcha

...and Izzy. (:

Happy days.

My belly bump is gradually getting bigger because, well, Izzy is getting bigger. I'm so excited to welcome this new addition into our family. (: Our family, up until January, will have mostly been Meemerz and the plants... Which is fine but the little one growing my belly is probably the shining star, even brighter than Eric and I.

I have work in half an hour. Need to ask for a larger shirt because my Medium sized one doesn't fit me anymore. ): The bottom of my belly shows. Hee. So, either getting a larger one or just going to enjoy wearing my own shirt for four hours, since my shift isn't super long. I just know I'll be guarding in the future, so I might need it in the future. Haha.

I love working at Turchin because everyone is super nice and welcoming. They've all been super supportive of our family and such lovely people to work with. However, guarding isn't the most strenuous job, so it makes sense. I'm just glad that they are happy with me. It helps that my two bosses are woman and mothers. Well, they've been mothers for a while now and when they had babies, they couldn't see their faces while they were still in the womb. Haha. Ultrasounds really are advancing... Soon, we'll be getting super clear pictures of babies inside the womb. And I'll be jealous of all the expecting mothers in a decade.

EC and I have been reading a lot of John Green and Murakami books... Murakami is vastly more adult and graphic but his work is so intriguing.

I just feel like creating right now. I freestyled, like for a good bit, earlier this morning for the first time in a long time. I haven't really dedicated any time to dance so it felt really awesome. But I'll be creating some art during my shift. I've got collage materials and pens and a pencil and my sketchbook! (:

Well, bye for now.

xxx

Beth

Safety.

I am so sorry to find one of my fellow students deceased after so much of this campus has spent more than a week looking for her when she disappeared. In so many of my classes we have discussed her and our own personal fears regarding the situation.

It wasn't until Pegge was asking everyone in the Tuesday at Turchin class if all of us had someone to walk with to our destinations afterwards. In fact, I hadn't really thought much about her going missing until her adamant remarks. This is mostly because, no, I didn't have someone to walk back with. I was planning on going to the library and after finishing up some work, walking back to the apartment. And until that moment, I wasn't scared to do so. But when Pegge found I didn't have anyone to walk with she looked me in the eye, held my hands in hers, furrowing her eyebrows to make me promise to call Eric until I got there.

So, that's what I did. I thought it was silly still but felt relieved when he answered the phone before trekking a small trip to the library. There's supposed to be a blue phone in the walkway between the library parking deck and the church but it wasn't illuminated the way they are supposed to be.

But I got to the library safely. I did my work. Read a while. And then made to leave for my apartment.

I won't lie. I was paranoid walking back. It was 11 at night. The rain had just let up. EC had to hang up and I was trying to call my house phone. People were out so late, loud, and in groups. I guess I shouldn't have been scared but the unwarranted loud noises were startling and I'm really more scared for my baby than for myself. If I was by myself, I may have been a little more relaxed but carrying a baby makes me much more cautious.

My mom phoned me as I was getting into my apartment building and she asked me if everything was okay. I just couldn't say yes. I did not feel okay. I felt unsafe. I felt scared. I felt like something bad might happen to me. So I burst out in tears. I cried for a while and she's always known how to handle that sort of situation of mine. She can always calm me down. Eric called me back, too, and everything felt better.

I've felt unsafe by myself. I don't feel comfortable anymore. I will force myself to find the safe way to wherever I need to go. Even if it means sleeping in the library or calling up someone when I feel like an inconvenience. I will not sacrifice my baby's safety for anything.

Typing this entry, I feel despair in my stomach. Filled to the brim, I don't know if I will ever fully come to terms with the evil ways of this world.

xxx

Beth

Happy, happy, happy.

I am very, very tired! Haha. Less than 8 hours of sleep the last two days...and it wouldn't be that big of a deal but pregnancy makes a girl really tired! I really am trying to go to bed around 11 every night... But I went to sleep around 3AM on Sunday night and then around 1:30AM yesterday. ): And waking up at 9 on Monday and then 8 this morning. Which... is fine. Haha. Tonight, I'm getting those 8 hours. (: Well, Izzy and I are getting our 8 hours.

Today, we had cereal and coffee to go! I just had a banana because I thought I didn't have one today but I totally had the banana Eric brought me this morning while I was printing stuff. Haha... I had to fix my time sheet and print out a paper this morning before my 9AM.

9AMs are definitely more doable for me than 8AMs. (:

It's nice to find a good time for my classes. It only took me around two years... Haha.

So, after my class EC and I had soup from Cascades so he could catch the bus for his class. I caught up with Casey, also an Art Ed major, and she was super excited for our little family. It's nice to chat with loving people. (:

Then I had two lectures before we headed to the bank. During that time, EC was able to change my October appointment to 3:45PM but my appointment in two weeks is still at 3:15PM which means I'm going to have to talk to my professor about leaving a little early. We have an exam that day but hopefully she excuses me... They gave me an appointment card but I'll probably have to get a note while I'm there.

This will be our 3rd prenatal appointment! (: And then the morning after we have to go back for another ultrasound. We have to go back to get a good picture of her face! (: We finally get to see your full on face, Isabella! Heeeee!

After the bank, we paid rent and had dinner at Stickboy Kitchen before Eric had to fly off to work. He works open to close tonight. ): I might have to encourage for him to take more naps after working like this. He only gets about 5 hours a night after working till close... I just want him to be a healthy and living well. Actually, might encourage him to take naps and to exercise! We already talked about him going on runs to build up energy for the baby. Haha.

But after Eric went to work, I went to Tuesday at Turchin and Molly showed up after a little. It was seriously one of the best ways I've spent my free time in a long time. The class is free, I get to spend time with happy people, and I get to do art. It's pretty awesome. (=

I was going to do yoga after I showered but it's too late in the evening... But, I'll probably try to do it tomorrow. (: I love doing my prenatal yoga. I think Izzy likes it, too. She never kicks while I'm practicing but she does move around quite a bit. It's only in class and after a lot of caffeine that she kicks me a lot.

We have to get the tires changed before we can head down to Raleigh for dance practice.
We also need to find a new home for Meemerz and de-flea my bedroom down there.

But, it's so nice knowing I only have one class on Thursday. (:

I'm going to relax and then fall asleep. (:

Have a good night, everyone!

xxx

Betcha and Izzy <3

WHAT I LEARNED IN BOATING SCHOOL IS...

• Mommy Moore!
• Table.
• Chairs.
• Sunrise Grill (Thank you for butting us food! c: ).
• The world's best breakfast burrito EVER.
• The world's best tater tots ever.
• The world's best Reese's pancake ever.
• Yik Yak.
• Heavy lifting (Eric, not me).
• A new maternity dress.
• Cute little baby boy clothes for de nephew.
• Belly band!
• Flip flops (For Eric, not me).
• Plants (Lady, Merlin, and ZZ).
• A new Fall-scented candle.
• New, comfy, sporty flats. (: (: (: (I love these shoes more than I've loved any shoes ever).
• Comfy, new, footed tights (In the laundry).
• Laundry.
• Chocolate-covered potato chips.
• BABIES EVERYWHERE.
• Potting our plants.
• Putting new artwork up.
• Dinner and Coffee Prince.
• Cuddles.
• Homework.
• Diggs Deeper stuff.
• Now.

Today was very filled with things. I haven't done this much stuff in a day in a very long time. I wish I could be more detailed. Maybe tomorrow.

I... am tired. (=

xxx

Beth